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Chapter 1 - The Man Who Came in Wearing Sunshine

Grant Morgan walked into his daughter's funeral wearing a shirt covered in blue hibiscus flowers.

He was tan. His sunglasses hung from the open collar. The blonde woman gripping his elbow wore a gold cocktail dress and sandals, as though someone had interrupted them between a hotel bar and a dinner reservation. Behind them, the chapel doors were still swinging.

At the front of the room, Leah Morgan knelt beside a white coffin and tried to fasten a pink ribbon around a stuffed rabbit's neck. Her hands shook so badly that she had tied the knot three times. Five-year-old Ivy had called the rabbit Captain, because she said someone had to take charge when grown-ups got scared.

"Leah?" Grant called. "What the hell is this?"

Every conversation stopped. A hundred mourners turned. Leah could hear the little fan in the corner making its tired clicking sound. She had heard that same sound for two hours without noticing it once.

"Where's Ivy?" Grant demanded.

Leah put her palm against the coffin. "You're looking at her."

The woman beside him released his arm. Grant stared at the white wood. For a moment his face seemed to come apart. Then he looked around at the guests, at the flowers, at the photograph of Ivy holding an enormous yellow umbrella.

"Why didn't anybody tell me?"

Leah rose too quickly. The room tilted, and she caught the edge of the coffin. Her black lace sleeves were damp with tears. She had slept in this dress because she could not bear to choose another piece of clothing.

"I called forty-seven times," she said. "I sent the hospital address. I told you she was asking for you."

"My phone was off. We were out of range."

"Saint Martin isn't the moon, Grant."

The blonde woman's eyes darted toward the doors.

Grant grabbed Leah's shoulder. "Don't do this in front of people. We need to talk about the house and her things."

Leah flinched. She had bruised that shoulder carrying Ivy from the car to the emergency entrance. "Take your hand off me."

Her older brother Ray Bell was moving before she finished the sentence. He was forty-eight, broad through the shoulders, with close-cut dark hair, a weathered square jaw, and the patient strength of a man who had repaired engines since he was sixteen. He had put on a plain black suit for his niece; grease still darkened one fingernail.

"Let her go," Ray said.

Grant shoved him with his free hand. "Stay out of my marriage."

Ray caught Grant's wrist and pulled it away from Leah. Grant swung at him. Ray blocked the blow and struck Grant once, a short, hard punch that sent him stumbling against a wooden pew. Ray stopped immediately and placed himself between Grant and his sister.

Nobody cheered. Ivy was still in the coffin.

The funeral director asked a staff member to call the police. Celeste Wynn, the woman in gold, whispered, "Grant, let's leave." But he stood panting, one hand pressed to his cheek.

"You had no right," he told Leah.

"I didn't want a funeral," she said. "I wanted you to answer."

A woman rose from the third pew. Her name was Maribel Torres. She was the hospital nurse who had once taught Ivy to take medicine by pretending the little paper cup was a spaceship. Maribel had brought a folded drawing for the family and had sat quietly through the service.

"Leah," she said, her voice breaking, "there's something you need to know. I spoke to Grant on Thursday."

Grant went motionless.

"Thursday?" Leah repeated. Ivy had died early Friday morning.

Maribel looked at him. "He knew how sick she was. He told me not to call him again."

The room seemed to shrink around Leah. She looked at the stranger in the bright shirt who had once carried Ivy on his shoulders through a street fair. She had spent a week fearing that he didn't know. The possibility that he had known was much worse.

"That's not what happened," Grant said.

"Then you'll be able to explain the call record," Maribel replied.

Two police officers entered through the open chapel doors and approached the disturbance. The funeral director met them quietly. Ray stepped aside as they spoke to Grant and Celeste. Leah turned away. She would not give Grant another second of Ivy's funeral.

She picked up Captain and placed him beside the tiny yellow blanket inside the coffin. His left ear had been repaired with green thread after Ivy tried to give him a haircut. Leah had promised her daughter she would fix it properly one day.

"I'm sorry I didn't finish," Leah whispered.

In the photograph above the flowers, Ivy stood beneath the porch light at home, grinning with one front tooth missing. She had drawn a yellow circle around that light in her last picture and written, in uneven letters, SO EVERYBODY CAN FIND US.

Before Ivy's illness returned, Leah had worked with a small community charity that bought bus tickets and temporary rooms for parents of hospitalized children. She had named it Porchlight after that drawing. Grant, good with numbers and better with strangers, had volunteered to oversee payments. People called them a wonderful team.

Leah had no idea whether the charity would survive this week. She did not yet care. She wanted one more afternoon with her child, one more request for orange slices cut into moons, one more argument about bedtime.

The service ended with an old hymn Ivy's grandmother used to sing while washing dishes. Leah stayed beside the coffin until the last guest left. Maribel waited at a respectful distance, then approached with a small envelope.

"I didn't tell you in front of everyone to hurt you," she said. "I thought you deserved to know why he wasn't there."

"What did he say, exactly?"

"He said, 'I got your messages. I can't leave right now. Stop calling this number.' I documented it."

Leah took the envelope. It contained a copy of the hospital's contact log, provided through the appropriate family-records process. Grant's number was printed beside the call time: Thursday, 2:14 p.m. Beneath it was a note that the parent had acknowledged the update.

Leah stared until the numbers blurred.

On Thursday at 2:14, she had been sitting on the hospital floor singing to Ivy because her daughter was frightened of the machines. Grant had been somewhere warm, telling a nurse to stop calling.

The funeral director returned carrying another envelope. "Mrs. Morgan? Your husband asked us to give you this before he arrived. He said it concerned the memorial account."

Leah opened it. A glossy brochure announced THE IVY MORGAN LEGACY GALA, complete with a photograph of her daughter and a donation link. The event was scheduled for the following Saturday. At the bottom, a line named Grant Morgan and Celeste Wynn as its organizing chairs.

Leah looked at the date on the printer's invoice clipped behind the brochure.

May you like

The gala had been ordered on Thursday morning.

Before Ivy died.

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