Chapter 4 - The Woman Behind the Microphone

Celeste Wynn had made a career of telling audiences what to feel. She knew how to arrange flowers for a photograph, when to lower her voice before saying a child's name, and which reporters would print a press release with barely a question.
Leah encountered her at the Porchlight office the following Monday. Celeste stood beside a photographer, arranging a yellow lamp on the reception desk.
"Get the logo in the frame," Celeste instructed. "We're rebuilding trust."
"Whose trust?" Leah asked from the doorway.
Celeste turned. Her gold dress was gone. She wore a cream blouse and trousers, immaculate enough to look like a person who had never carried a sleepy child up a flight of stairs.
"Leah. I was going to call."
"You had a week."
"Grant told me you needed space."
"He told you lots of things. You still got on the plane."
The photographer lowered his camera. Leah asked him to stop photographing the office until the charity clarified who had authorized the campaign. He complied. Celeste dismissed him with an embarrassed smile.
"We're trying to raise money for families," Celeste said.
"You're using Ivy's photograph without asking me."
"Grant is her father."
"Then he knows she hated having her picture taken when she was sick. Take it down."
Celeste folded her arms. "You can't let grief destroy something good."
Leah almost answered with anger. Instead she pointed to a drawing taped beside the door: a crooked yellow house, a purple rabbit, and four stick figures under a light.
"She drew that when a father came to the hospital three hours late because the last bus didn't stop near the entrance. She told me the light should stay on until he got there. That's why the charity exists. Not so you can put her face on a ballroom screen."
Celeste's expression changed briefly. "I didn't know that."
"You could've asked."
At the board meeting, Dennis opened by proposing that Leah take an extended leave while Grant and Celeste ran the gala. Two trustees nodded. A third, retired principal Laverne Shaw, asked why the meeting packet contained no bank reconciliation.
"We're working through it," Dennis said.
"Then why are we approving an event budget?"
Hannah attended as Leah's counsel. She did not take over the room. Leah laid out May's questions, the frozen transportation account, and the fact that neither she nor the board had approved certain invoices in properly recorded minutes.
"I am not asking you to believe me because my child died," Leah said. "I'm asking you to examine the records because other people's children are still alive and need us."
Laverne requested an independent audit and a temporary halt to new contracts involving the disputed vendor. The motion passed narrowly. Dennis's smile vanished.
Grant stood to leave. "You're making an embarrassment out of this."
"You made the decisions," Leah said. "We're asking for the paperwork."
He approached her as the trustees filed out.
"You have no idea what happens if that gala fails."
"Tell me."
"Creditors don't care about your sentimental little drawings."
"Whose creditors?"
He stopped. Celeste caught his eye from across the room, and something passed between them.
When the trustees left, Laverne remained behind. She had been principal at Ivy's preschool and remembered a girl who refused to draw a sun without giving it a face.
"Your daughter once organized a protest against the playground gate," Laverne said.
"She thought the ducks should be able to come in."
"She had a petition. Three signatures. One belonged to the class hamster."
Leah's smile caught painfully. Laverne waited, then said, "I voted for the audit because we need one. Don't let anyone tell you it was a sympathy vote."
"Dennis will say I made this personal."
"It is personal to every family with a missed ride. That's why the accounts have to be impersonal. Documented. Checkable."
Outside, Leah found Celeste taking down the photograph she'd hung in the lobby. Celeste held the frame awkwardly, as if suddenly aware she had no right to it.
"I didn't understand how much she hated the camera," Celeste said.
"She didn't always hate it. She loved pictures of ducks. She hated when adults asked her to look brave."
Celeste lowered the frame. "I'm sorry."
Leah didn't answer. Sorry could take the picture down; it couldn't return the days Celeste had helped steal.
That night Ray found Leah sitting on Ivy's bedroom floor. The shelves still held animal books arranged by height. A jar of seashells sat beside the bed. Ivy collected them on trips to the lake even though she insisted the tiny ones were "baby rocks."
"You don't have to solve everything tonight," Ray told her.
"If I stop, he gets the microphone."
"Then let me hold it for a minute."
Leah leaned against his shoulder. He had protected her at the funeral, but here he did something harder: he let her cry without trying to fix it.
At midnight, Celeste sent a message. I need to speak with you alone. Not about Grant. About the night the hospital called.
Leah showed it to Hannah before responding. They arranged a meeting in Hannah's office.
Celeste arrived twenty minutes early, carrying a small purse in both hands.
"Grant didn't lose his phone," she said before she sat down. "He gave it to me."
"Why?"
"He told me to hold it while he went sailing. I saw your messages. I told him Ivy was in intensive care."
Leah stared at her.
"What did he say?"
Celeste lowered her eyes. "He said, 'She's always making everything an emergency.'"
Leah's mouth went dry.
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"And you stayed?"
"Yes," Celeste whispered. "I stayed."